Well actually it's a bit overcast here in Phoenix. But the sun is definitely shining in our everyday lives. It's amazing what a little sleep can do for you! First off, thank you all for your kind words of support and love. They meant so much to me....even if they kept the tears flowing for a bit. I think I needed to hit rock bottom in order for things to get better. And get better they have! That's terrible english I know. The past 4 nights Natalie has been sleeping a 6 hour or more stretch. How lucky am I? The first night it happened of course I was up every hour checking on her, but now I'm relaxing a bit. She has fallen into a pattern that is working for all of us. I'm sure it will change soon but for now it's all good. I think my prayers for relief were heard, I'm so grateful for that. I hated feeling so awful and anxious, it's no fun. I just kept telling myself that all I've ever wanted to be was a mom and I've got to pull it together somehow!
I cannot complain one teeny tiny bit about Cyrena. She has been a champ through all of this. She is SO helpful and happy and playful. She still doesn't love going to bed, but what almost 3 year old does? I don't think it was going from 1 to 2 that was bringing me down, it's the whole newborn thing; sleep deprivation, trying to nurse, watching their diapers, figuring out their cries, etc., etc., etc. I'm just not confident with newborns, but things are getting so much better. I've actually started to be able to enjoy my new baby girl and relax about things a bit. Like I've been told from EVERYONE who knows me, I WORRY TOO MUCH! I need to not have such high expectations for me and my children. As long as we're healthy and happy, we're on the right track.
Natalie is starting to get some chub. She already has the fat rolls in her upper thighs and her face is totally filled out. Cyrena was formula-fed and very chubby. Since I'm nursing Natalie so far I was interested to see if she would fill out from breast-milk as much as Cyrena did with formula. So far, it's about the same! Their baby pictures look so similar, even down to their cowlick which is in the same spot!
p.s. I took the girls to go check out the new Trader Joe's that opened up out here. It's so great! It's a lot more spacious than the other locations and they had PLENTY of the kiddie carts which is the only reason Cyrena wanted to go. For proof of this, you can check out the wounds on the back of my ankles from Cyrena ramming her cart into me as she followed me around the store. Also, they have all their fun Christmas goodies out, SO FUN!